Word Vomit Complete - Writing a Messy First Draft Manuscript

Morgan Larkin • October 17, 2025

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Hi fellow readers, writers, and friends!


Since I'm documenting my chaotic journey from "I have an idea" to "I have a published book" (fingers crossed), let's start with the glamorous part: my first draft. Spoiler alert—it was a beautiful disaster. But hey, it's done! Pop the champagne. We're celebrating ALL the wins here, people.


Picture this: a crisp Texas morning in January 2024. I'm clutching my coffee like it holds the secrets to the universe, chatting with my husband about New Year's resolutions. You know the drill—run more, eat better, finally visit that place we pinned on Google Maps three years ago.


Then it hit me: it had been over FOUR YEARS since that fateful trip to Tofino where I mentally outlined an entire SFF trilogy while staring at the ocean like a deranged poet.


You're probably thinking: Morgan, why have you been sitting on this story for four years?


Honestly? Life happened. The world shut down. My kids' schools went virtual (which meant I became a part-time teacher/referee/IT support). My work exploded (turns out everyone suddenly wanted to rent an RV and escape civilization). And then I lost my mom to cancer, which kind of puts everything else in perspective.


But let's be real—those are just reasons, not excuses. The truth is, this story had been eating at me for YEARS. It was like that one song stuck in your head that you can't shake no matter how hard you try.


So there, swirling the last drops of coffee in my mug, I declared: This year, I'm writing Book 1. Period.


That very day, fueled by caffeine and determination, I mapped out the whole story. For the next six months, I wrote every evening and weekend. My goal? Crank out one to two chapters at a time. Seven months later, I'm staring at a manuscript with over 120,000 words. I was PUMPED. I handed it to four brave beta readers (friends and family who clearly love me) and waited for the confetti.


Plot twist: The feedback was... overwhelming.


My beta readers were kind, but honest. Translation: they gave me A LOT of notes. And here's what I learned real quick—my story was nowhere near ready. As politely as they could phrase it, I could read between the lines.


The Problems:


  • Pacing slower than a sloth on vacation (not enough action, and the inciting incident showed up fashionably late... like, way too late)
  • My protagonist was flatter than day-old soda (readers weren't connecting)
  • Not enough backstory (they wanted to know HOW we got here)


The feedback stung, but it was crucial. I tried adjusting the manuscript twice, but I kept slapping Band-Aids on bullet wounds. So I did what any exhausted writer does—I took a break.


Fast forward to Spring 2025. I'm elbow-deep in garden dirt when one of my beta readers comes to visit. She asks how the book is going.


Me: "Oh, I shelved it."


Her face: Visible disappointment.


And that's when it hit me—I was disappointed too. I'm not a quitter. If something's left unfinished, it crawls under my skin and sets up camp until I deal with it.


So I got back into my writing routine with a vengeance. But this time, I had to actually SOLVE the problems. And here's what I figured out: when you're stuck, find someone who's already figured it out.


I started reading SFF books like it was my job. But instead of just enjoying the ride, I was dissecting them. I studied pacing, story arcs, character development—everything. I found the styles I loved, the beats that kept me hooked, and realized they all had one thing in common: solid, consistent structure.


That's when I made the call: I had to gut the book.


I murdered 50% of my precious story and rebuilt it from the bones up. I moved the inciting incident earlier. I wove in backstory without info-dumping like a textbook. I gave my protagonist flaws (turns out nobody likes a perfect hero—who knew?). I added action. LOTS OF ACTION. I completely overhauled the story arc and cranked up the fantasy elements to eleven.


This process ate up my summer. By August, I had a new manuscript—one I actually felt proud of. (Even if self-doubt still creeps in like an uninvited houseguest.)


My beta readers are now reading THIS version, and the feedback so far...

  • "Oh my gosh, you totally transformed that character!"
  • "This reads SO much faster now."
  • "The dialogue is fire."
  • "I did NOT see that plot twist coming."
  • "The sexual tension? Yes."


But here's the thing: I could tweak this manuscript forever. But at some point, you have to look yourself in the mirror and say, "It's enough."


Don't get me wrong—I'm not delusional enough to think I've solved every problem. That's why I'm hiring a developmental editor to help me level up this baby.


So that's where I am today—doggy-paddling forward, one revision at a time.


Stay creative, stay obsessed, and keep writing messy first drafts.


Morgan
Debut author faking it till I make it ☕📚✨


Let's chat: Did your first draft survive or did you have to burn it down? I want to hear your story in the comments!

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